2) Sometimes I feel like I have too much freedom here that I'd become a person who talks with no boundaries. I only care for those whom I care, I criticize those whom I dislike / things that I 看不顺眼 in front of them, basically I'm becoming more and more pattern each day that I'm afraid that my good friends are annoyed by me. But non of them express any unhappiness towards my patternness. (Well, except one of my cooking mate. I can sense that she feels like slapping my face all the time) but I don't really care you know. because I don't wanna make her feel like I'm pleasing her, or I'm actually tolerating her princess attitude. So yea, I'm completely myself this moment. 

Though I don't know whether I should continue to be like that. But everyone seems to be fine and they are always laughing when they are with me. Maybe it's a good thing? I don't know. 

I guess I should learn how to 收放。

3) eventhough I contributed to today's class discussion, but there is a slight unhappiness as I'm still the old me who doesn't know how to express her points well. How the hell am I gonna survive :(. 

Tonight, let me drown myself in music. 

几年后，当我再回想起2013年的总总，我会记得,

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF! KNOW THAT YOU WILL DO WELL! HAVE FAITH & CONFIDENCE! 

GO KICK THAT TEST PAPER'S ASS!

Hello. Sorry for the MIA lately. Haha. I've got 3 little secrets to share today.

1) I commit maself to 3 kinda blogs. 1st is Dayre, Tumblr, then this. Okay, I know it's so hard to keep track on which blog I'll be updating, but I guess I'll update more on Dayre and Tumblr. Dayre is so convenient that I only need 20mins to share my thoughts& my day. I know it's a public space but I'm assuming that nobody's interested with my boring life&thoughts except for those who matters. As for Tumblr, because I'd joined a 100HappyDays thingi, so I'll be updating my tumblr everyday. :)

Well if you're interested, below are both ma Dayre and Tumblr link :).

• http://dayre.me/eestes
• http://esestes92.tumblr.com/

Labels: happy, just saying, Life Of a Student, Music, random, thoughts

I never give up. I never give up on my dreams, on people around me, and life. I never give up on my family,ever give up on all my friends and I never give up on ma dreams towards music. Also, I never give up pleasing everyone, never give up on bringing joy to people, and I never give up on my dreams even though I fail so many times.

Labels: 2013, just saying, lesson, motivation

"All you gotta do is believe in yourself!"

I keep telling myself this because I think I worry too much. I worry because I spent my reading week with my families and not studying. I worry because sometimes I slack. Worry worry WORRY! such a negative word!

I'm eliminating you here!

SO WHAT? I worked my ass out before every lecture. I listen to almost every lecture (although sometimes I couldn't focus for about 5 mins). I listen to the recording of lectures. I make sure that I understand what I'm reading. I do research on whatever I don't understand. AND, at least I don't spend a few days on dramas ONLY (once a week only).

HOW ABOUT THAT? WORRY? WHAT NONSENSE!

BELIEVE! All you gotta do is believe Ee Suen!

Labels: just saying, Life Of a Student, motivation, Music, Quotes, random

You don't understand how desperate I wanna be strong, powerful and influential because I hate the stares I get when I don't know something, I hate being ignore because of my boring topics and last but not least, I hate being an outcast.

Labels: Desperate, just saying, thoughts