and I had mine,

My little infinities. 

Hi world.

Just feeling a little melancholy tonight, so I decided to come back to blog. Yes, no ranting about life on this corner of mine but yea, just wanna share some of my deepest thoughts here where I know just a few of yous will read it.

Well, where shall I start? I'm back home and so far, home doesn't feels like home at all. Home is about control and obligations. People say when they think of home, there's love, comfort and free. But why do I feel this way? Not that I don't feel comfortable when I'm home, but I just feel the people at home (especially the adults) are so controlling and talks only about money and obligations and nothing else it makes me sick.

Am I wrong to think that life's not just about money and obligations? But even though I'm so irritated by all these facts, but I have no choice to go on whatever I'm doing because I've gotta pay the bills and my own expenses. Why's reality so cruel?

I really miss the freedom I felt during the Italy trip. You have no idea how light I felt when I was on the trip.

The Breathtaking View

The Unique Experience in Venice

The Do-What-I-Want-Cause-I-Can Moment

The more you try to trap me with all the responsibilities, the more I wanna break free.

Labels: Life, Reality, Reminiscing, thoughts

Hi.

I just finished watching The Fault in Our Stars. I thought watching it would be less painful for me than reading it. But unfortunately, it turned out to be the other way round.

Probably because I'd read the book, and I can understand the feeling that the characters are expressing, and I got emotionally affected by it because I can relate it to my life.

It's unbearable, the pain. I guess one can never understand the pain until they'd experience it. But when you'd experienced it, you know you just gotta move on, to live with the pain.


Though they'd lost someone they loved, but whatever they had, their little infinities, were beautiful.

Labels: Pain, Quotes, Reality, Reminiscing, thoughts

I actually had a lot more to write on tumblr but I decided to write it here instead as it gets a little private.

Now that I have four three weeks of holiday before the stressful final, I'm basically just chilling everyday, rotting in my room, watching movies, stalking friends, listening to music and research on Scotland. Well I really wanna make Scotland happen but as bad as my mind wants it to happen, my body  fingers are just so reluctant to do some research about it. Okay, nobody can help me except myself.

"If you want something to happen, do something about it!" 

On the other hand, I should be studying on my taxation right now but my thoughts are everywhere now. Thought about Ace-Ed and I miss all the poem-writing, acting, giving speeches and the people there.

Reminiscing...............................

Was giving my last speech in the centre.

Labels: Past, Reminiscing, thoughts