and I had mine,

My little infinities. 

Hi world.

Just feeling a little melancholy tonight, so I decided to come back to blog. Yes, no ranting about life on this corner of mine but yea, just wanna share some of my deepest thoughts here where I know just a few of yous will read it.

Well, where shall I start? I'm back home and so far, home doesn't feels like home at all. Home is about control and obligations. People say when they think of home, there's love, comfort and free. But why do I feel this way? Not that I don't feel comfortable when I'm home, but I just feel the people at home (especially the adults) are so controlling and talks only about money and obligations and nothing else it makes me sick.

Am I wrong to think that life's not just about money and obligations? But even though I'm so irritated by all these facts, but I have no choice to go on whatever I'm doing because I've gotta pay the bills and my own expenses. Why's reality so cruel?

I really miss the freedom I felt during the Italy trip. You have no idea how light I felt when I was on the trip.

The Breathtaking View

The Unique Experience in Venice

The Do-What-I-Want-Cause-I-Can Moment

The more you try to trap me with all the responsibilities, the more I wanna break free.

Labels: Life, Reality, Reminiscing, thoughts

Hi.

I just finished watching The Fault in Our Stars. I thought watching it would be less painful for me than reading it. But unfortunately, it turned out to be the other way round.

Probably because I'd read the book, and I can understand the feeling that the characters are expressing, and I got emotionally affected by it because I can relate it to my life.

It's unbearable, the pain. I guess one can never understand the pain until they'd experience it. But when you'd experienced it, you know you just gotta move on, to live with the pain.


Though they'd lost someone they loved, but whatever they had, their little infinities, were beautiful.

Labels: Pain, Quotes, Reality, Reminiscing, thoughts

This year's Father's Day was slightly different from the previous years. I get to sit down and listen to serious discussion of the adults in my family on investment and returns. I'd also learnt that the one who's closest to you are the one who has the most ability to hurt you. The more we grow up, the more we will realised that the world isn't as simple as we thought, the people we know aren't as good and kind as we thought. We can either start observing our surroundings, grab as much information as possible or continue to be ignorant and fu*k up our life.

It's time to put down the iPad, put aside the dramas and start understanding the behaviour of the people around us.

Labels: Reality, thoughts